To do or not to do. Should we take the next step or step backward? Which would be the right decision? Is it going to be another disaster or will it be a blessing in disguise? Will it be worth my effort?
Life has been quite eventful for me since the last couple of years. A slippery slope I might add. Some days it's been good whereas some bad. I don't have any regrets over how things have turned out for me although I wish it was easier. Still, I have no regrets over how my life has changed and still changing as time passes. Though I wish sometimes that I had control over my life but it's okay; life isn't a video game that comes with gaming consoles. It's like a river with its own flow.
I'm not the best decision-maker and a lot of decisions that I have taken had quite an impact on my life. A few good decisions however have made my life a lot better. I don't regret the struggles I faced, I believe a lot of people have had worse. I'm doing the best that I can with instruments that life has provided me with. I'm grateful and I stay humble. For life has given me a lot as much struggle as it has given me, it's been delightful on many occasions.
Throughout the years, I have endured a lot of pain; the pain of losing loved ones, the grief of failure, the pain of being on the brink of losing everything. So I try to help as much as I can to others in need. At times, I can help but sometimes, I fail to do so. I barely face the dilemma of helping an ungrateful person. Yes, I have had those moments when I didn't get any help from someone whom I have helped before. But what should I do when the same individual in the same situation and is in need of help again?
Should I lend out my helping hand again and not expect anything in return?
Indecision may come from an instinctive hunch that there's more you need to know - which means it's time to learn everything you can about the pros and cons of each option. You can continue on this track, however, only as long as you're unearthing genuinely new information. - Martha Beck
No, I think I have decided to help so that I won't have a guilty conscience, but I have decided to draw the line here. Probably this would be the last time, but I will help; not because they need help, but because it's a matter of life and death and I don't want regrets eating my soul out. I'm in peace with however my life has become and I'm proud of the person I am. I know that when I'll be in trouble again they won't be there to help me or be around to console me when I'm broken down. But I will help to the best of my abilities and no further. This is where my generosity ends.
Have I taken the right decision?
