Who should I ask for help for my very own depression,
When everyone is putting a fake smile as a first impression.
People know everything, they know you are broken,
But still they expect that your scars should not be open.
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They expect you to be good,
They expect you to celebrate your life, Holding a glass of red wine.
When they know with you, nothing is fine.
Holding the empty glass under the dark old ceiling,
Don't know how to escape this negative feelings.
The sound of the ceiling fan is rattling,
The thought of killing myself is always captivating.
The smell of vinegar and alcohol runs through my veins,
Never knew how this beautiful body had turned into a devastated pain.
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It's important to know that killing yourself for someone is never worth it.
"Worth" is all about living your life and proving yourself.
If you still find yourself devastated in suicidal thoughts,
Hold on and be strong
You have some negative minds to prove wrong.