Yesterday I found a page in my journal dedicated to 2021. big goals - three of them and some fun things I listed that are more like a bucket list for this year - not that important but still nice to make them happen.
It's been a while since I looked back at those pages and even though it wasn't that long since I wrote them down and I still resonate with a lot of them, it also feels like the "old me" wrote them. I truly feel like I have grown and learned so much over the past few months. A lot of big and important things I wanted for a very long time now are happening all at once. I also feel like I am breaking a stagnant energy and being at the same place for years so I can finally move forward in life.
When in doubt, turn to nature
Some of the most important things I have learned:
dealing with my emotions in a much healthier way where I would allow myself to feel them instead of ignoring or hiding them away from myself. This is an on-going process and something I want to keep up with for good. I also feel a lot more comfortable and confident in expressing my emotions to other people which was one of my big struggles.
dealing with bad experiences/sadness: old me would dwell over the bad experience for so long, it's not a surprised I was so stuck and prone to depression. I am noticing that nowadays, when something unpleasant happens, I would still get sad and have negative thoughts but I would allow them to come to surface, feel them and then let them go. This really helped me not to build walls around me and keep them up for ages, preventing any good things to come my way.
journaling has played a huge role in getting to know myself better, process everything that is going on at that moment, manifest, organize my thoughts and life. I find it very healing and stress-relieving.
working on replacing anxiety and fear with a more positive mindset - all these previous points led me to have a more positive outlook on life, fix my limiting beliefs and look on things differently. I try to replace anxiety and fear with thoughts like "Let's get over this challenge!" and it almost turns into a game - things that usually cause me anxiety are just a hard level I need to pass! :)
Keeping the attitude of gratitude
Even though I still have a lot of improvement to make, I still fall back into the old ways of thinking and have negative thoughts sometimes, I don't feel hopeless or out of any direction in my life. I am re-defining myself, my goals and priorities and actually doing something about them instead of just wishing or writing them down. With that being said, it's not really a surprise I don't resonate with some of my goals and priorities that I wrote down at the beginning of 2021. It's still nice to look at them and see how much I have changed. But now it's time to set some new goals!
As I mentioned, a lot of big things and changes are happening in my life all at once which again proved me that life is totally unpredictable and yes, I am a sucker for setting New Year's goals and resolutions but I think that short term goals (three-four months) are a lot more manageable and realistic. So that's what I'm going to do - set a few goals for the rest of the 2021. and really focus on them rather than keep dreaming of some huge goals that feel unrealistic, so far away I don't even know where or how to start working on them. I am very grateful for the way things are going and even though there have been some challenges along the way, I am dealing with them a lot better and learn from them too.
Finding beauty in small, everyday things
It's never too late to start fresh, let go of what doesn't serve us anymore, embrace change, learn and grow in every aspect of our lives, appreciate what we have, express gratitude, count our blessings, improve our mindset and the way we think... Life is definitely not all sunshine and rainbows, there's so many things we cannot control but I guess it's all about where we pour our energy to and what we focus on.
Thank you for reading! :)
